The Choice

Sometimes when you want to cry
But all you can do is, fake a smile!!
When you want to clear your thoughts
But all you can think of is a  lost cause.

When you want to throw all your trash away and, make a  fresh start
but whatever you do takes you to the same path.

When you have deceived yourself and convinced the world about your life,
As they all can see,
Not truly in your heart, but in your eyes

But whenever you see your self in the mirror,
You see your true inner self filled with skies
As they say,
Mirror never lies.

Suddenly, all those moments that you have been dying to forget, gets more alive
It fills your heart with agony and distrust,
So is that all!!
Is this the end?
So is this how you have imagined your story to end?
May be there is no such thing as "the end"
It's just the point where you “stop writing it”!!

So you look up and scream out to the skies...
Hey Mr. Fate man, if you are listening..
See, I am still here,
not shaking,
not breaking,
Still standing tall....

Take me to the place where,
there is no beginning and no end,
Where my nights turn into days
And my tears turn into smile,

Once again you shrugged off all your pain, hold yourself up,
And convince yourself,
Hell yeah!! This is the hardest choice,
But unfortunately the right one
The experiences that have made you bitter, have made you wise.

You have decided to keep sailing, 
Jusst keep sailing......
in any random direction, as you can't afford to stand still.

Let your emotions flow

Times when you sleep open eyed,
falling from this world to the darkness inside,
Times when you just want to scream,
and shout out to the skies,
Restless to find all the answers that's bugging you inside,

This world is a nasty place,
they ask you to smile
because nobody like teary eyes,
your shaky trembling hands will be misjudged for your confidence
your scared strained voice will be misread for your grit
So cry all you want but don’t you quit.

Let your sadness choke your lungs,
and make you numb to feel the rise and fall in your chest,

Let your fears cripple you and left you unawaken
and make your world so dark
that no dawn can break,

Let the emptiness fill your void,
and leave you in the chaos where everything gets destroyed

But don’t you stop, just let it flow
Let it hurt
Let it burn
Let it consume you,
B’coz the ashes that will be left in the end, will be the real you !!

It's not about what you get, it's about how you feel about it.

As the Socrates said in Peaceful warrior, “Suffering is inevitable, if you don’t get what you want you will suffer, if you get what you don’t want you will suffer and even if you get what you don’t want you will still suffer because you can’t hold on to it forever”. So don’t waste time in sorting out life rather live the life as it comes. Don’t fall into the trap of “If only I had this, I would be this, If only this, If only that, if only…..I would get happy” It's not about what you get, it's about how you feel about it. Try to fully engage in the moment, don’t waste time gloating in the past or worrying about insecurities of future, instead “Experience the moment”. The secret of life is to enjoy the moment, “Here and Now period”.

Life is no race, no one is loosing and no one is winning. Success matters only when you are able to enjoy it, otherwise its just a number and no one is keeping the score. So don’t pin your success on outcomes. Love what you do and do what you love. Remove the trash from your mind, clear off your mind from everything that you don’t need or you don’t love. Make peace with yourself and accept yourself and every situation as-is. Don’t be envious of others success or try to imitate them in your life. Instead, find your own goals. Everyone wants to tell you whats good for you and what you should do, they don’t want you to find your own answers rather believe in what they say. Don’t listen to them. All your answers are within you. Listen to it!!

Don’t try to go somewhere, rather be at the moment. Now, this Time !! At the end the only thing that matters is not what you did, but how well you did it and did you love what you did.

"कदम डगमगा जाए तो गिरने न देना,
रास्ते भटक जाए तो मंज़िल दिखा देना
इस भीड़ में , इस भीड़ में। ......."
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pain, loss, tears, bloodshed
Aren’t u afraid? Life asked
Death smiled.

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Among  high-quality pictures in her album,
lied one shabby blurred picture
For her, it's the best “Me and my Mom”

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life slapped her in the face,
harder she said
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mascara checked,
eye shadow checked,
foundation checked,
once again she has put on her mask to hide the scars
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he kissed on her forehead,
love you dad, she replied
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loud music,
dance floors,
late night parties,
nothing helped her forget her pain
her father’s smile did
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less salt, half cooked vegetables and over baked chappatis
it's delicious, she replied to her dad
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in the world where everybody leaves,
I will always be there for you,
replied the brightest star
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"I was right", said the mind mockingly to heart
Once again heart has no answer!

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बीता हुआ कल

बीता हुआ कल है एक ख्वाब सा,
क्यों है दिल मेरा कुछ बेताब सा

कल तक जो ख्वाबों के बाग थे ,
सुलझे हुये सारे हर जवाब थे ॥
यादों के रंगों में कहीं खो गए ,
जागी हूँ मैं पर क्यों ये सो गए ॥

क्या कहूँ क्यों ये दिल उदास है,
ना कोई दूर है न कोई पास है ॥
धुंधले से सारे सपने मेरे ,
लहरों में कहीं खो गए ......

 तेरी कहानी, तेरी ज़ुनाबी !! 

 

माना कि राहोँ में काँटें हैं तेरे ,

पर तूने रूकना सीखा ना कभी । 

माना कि सवेरे धुँधले हैं तेरे ,

पर तूने थमना सीखा ना कभी ॥ 
 

                               आसान राहें चुनी कब हैं तूने,

                                ये ज़िद्दी सवेरे तेरे । 

                                खुद से किये वादों के, वो ढृढ़ इरादों के,

                                दिल में बसेरे तेरे ॥ 

जो  बातें तेरी कह ना पाई ज़ुबाँ कभी,

वो आँखें तेरी कर देंगी बयान । 

जो गम हंसी में छुपा लिए हैं तूने कहीं ,

वो तेरी खामोशियों में गूँजेंगे सदा ॥ 

                                 रोके ना रुकेगा कभी तू,

                                 रख खुद पे यक़ीन तू इतना । 

                                 तेरी कहानी, तेरी ज़ुबानी,

                                 इक दिन सुनेगा ये सारा जहाँ ॥  

सुलझी हुई जुल्झी सी ज़िन्दगी.....

सुलझे धागों में उलझी सी ज़िन्दगी

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थोड़ा सा बेकाबू दिल

कभी समदिल कभी बुज़दिल

        झुकाने से भी झुकता नही

        गिराने से भी गिरता नही

        उम्मीदों से है ये भरा हुआ

        फिर क्यों है ये खुद से डरा हुआ

नई नई सज़ाएं क्यों है ये खुद को देता

ज़िद है जब हँसने की तो फिर क्यों है ये रोता

रुकना थामना है इसने न कभी सीखा 

फिर क्यों ये आगे बढ़ने से डरता

       ज़िद है की अँधेरे को चीर कर फिर वापस रौशनी लाएंगे

       खो गयी है जो हँसी उसे फिर जगाएंगे

       फिर क्यों ये गम से ज्यादा ख़ुशियों से डरता

       अँधेरे घर में क्यों ये चिराग जलाने से डरता