Story of a bird:
It's the story of a bird who just came to this world, learning, exploring and enjoying every moment of her life. A bird who doesn’t know the difference between happiness and sadness, don’t know what is winning and what is losing, never gave a damn about emotions, feelings, sentiments…..For her life is all about living, loving and caring, doing what her heart wants to do….
But one fine day which seemed to be like a usual day though it was not, a storm came and everything changed after that. Its like after light comes darkness…..never realized how life can change in seconds. For some time she didn’t believe, thought its just an incidence in life and soon everything will come back to normal, soon she will be the one who she was before.But that never happened. Life has different plans for her. Darkness has started taking place in her life. All those happy feelings are now gone. Fear has taken place in her heart. Fear of being abandoned, fear of being left alone, fear of being rejected, fear of not being able to make it through her life, fear of losing herself, fear of losing loved ones who will fly away like other free birds to never return…..
Every single day she struggles to find meaning of her life, to find why she is still breathing and then force herself that she can not give up so easily, thats surely not the kind of person she is, she still has reasons to survive, though some doesn’t seems to make much sense to her. Every single day she struggles with herself, trying to understand her inner chaos, her inner tussle, give herself some reasons to smile but soon it all goes away. Sometimes, she thought of giving it up all and end all this for ever.
But…every day she try to be little bit stronger, try to hear her silent screams, her unheard voice, to understand inner frustration, to cry out loud hoping to get some peace but nth seems to work anymore. Every night trying to get sleep hoping that tomorrow will be a better day but turns out to be same or worst. It has become a routine now, getting up every morning through all this mess and putting smile on her face hoping that one day she will get stronger. Wiping her dry tears which is not comforting anymore, trying to ignore hurt by turing on radio and playing stupid song. Faking and fooling herself every single day that she will be ok.
It has become a habit now….all those blurred lines have started making sense to her. Now she realized that all those unanswered questions are better left to be unsolved. May be things are meant to be like this. May be this is what we all call life. You may meet people who will stay with you forever or leave you without looking back.Its about getting something, losing other, smiling at one point crying for other, loving someone who can’t love you back, leaving someone who loves you like no one ever will, hurting someone getting hurt by other, dreaming things which can never come true, getting things which you never dreamt about....
In her quest to search for inner peace she has find the true meaning of life. She has discovered that nothing stays for long. Everything has an entry and exit plan.There is no such thing called inner peace or true happiness. May be its the chaos that keeps us alive. Its the pain that makes us fight for smile. It our fears that makes us realize our strength. She learned that there is no such thing called problem, never was and will never be…She has accepted life with open arms and understood that she has to live and let go….
As someone rightly said: "“If you don't get what you want, you suffer; if you get what you don't want, you suffer; even when you get exactly what you want, you still suffer because you can't hold on to it forever.”
